SInce A V.Long TimE!!!

GawD... Lotsa stuff happen.

NO time to blog-busy with school & stuffs.

Lotsa things to buy.

Lotsa promise to be made.

Dreams to Catch

Friendship to renew......

n CAMAT HARI RAYE!! for those muslim peeps.

Suddenly i feel that i love everyone. Cause i know that i make a different in people lifes. One of themwould be Danial. Honestly, no one is perfect. But there is always a possibility for someone to change. And his willing to do all that. But heseriously need CONSTANT reminders. Hehe.

Yst i went out with his family, his cousins, his aunt, his uncle. N his unle said "jangan lah satu hari nanti kau menghilangkan diri".I cannot promise anything as it's not me who determines anything. Is all in HIS hands. He let meuse his watch. It looks weird on me. DUH! it's a guy's watch. Though he doesn't feel comfortable w/o his watch.

I know he ****s me. Then today meet him at BUGIS. I went shopping. I'm broke again. Tomorrow i have 3 test. Bio dun be suprise yeah!! I seriously needbuy a bigger pencil box so my calculator could fit. The roxy-bestie;izzati knows- it. Kewl!! =) It also had been a long time since bestieS- fana, idah, zul, ahmad- studied together. N yeah i'm selected for the PAGEANT

Finally the... THE WEIRD GAME
Rules of the game:
Each player of this game starts of with 10 weird things or habits or little known facts about themselves. People who gt tagged must write in their blog of their own 10 weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end of it, you must choose six people and list out their names. And please, no tagging back on me.

1)i used to love FLYERs, i collected them
2)i ever peed while sleepwalking
3)i dun like my name- MARDHIAH
4)in some ways i like to study
5)i often talk to myself.even now
6)i love me! nt enough to be self-obssesed. Ahahaks
7)perfectionist is me! that's what they say.
8)i used to shoplift n steal!- but that was decades. dah insaf
9)i'm planning on wearing a TUDUNG. (i only buy long sleeves shirts n pants or long skirts)
10)i love maths&science but hates english&malay.

You're tagged! No choice babe.
1)Farhan (anxx)
2)Farhanah
3)Noridah
4)Kathyjah
5)Sabrina
6)Amalina

Toodles!! i'm loving my life!!

hello its been 11 days huh since i last updated. Lol.

My life: usually the things i want that's not within my control i do not get it. The person i really want never gets to me. The siblings i wished pple had were mine.

Guys: the person i fell for just do not end up with me. The person i feel for friends are crazy over me. Why? I'm just trying to be optomistic being around him. it stress me up sometimes to think WHAT IF I WERE TO BE WITH HIM? cause i'm not. He's treating it as if i am.

Memories and pictures were deleted to depict that i'm WITH him, I'm not. I'm upset my story line will never be MY fairytale. But theirs.

Test craps. I slept during malay test. Which i'm sure going to fail. Confirm. I was too tired though. But i'm already planning to start my revisions. maybe sstarting soon... Within this or next week huh.

Work: Since united square is closed. I was first transferred to Toa Payoh. But the toaPayoh aren't really my place of choice. Neither is it for my managers. For sertain reason which are unsafe to say. Thus, this weekend i'm going to work at Marina Square. Kewl! Someone there is already counting the days to see me.

of not exactly last day. but it was the day that United Square Pizza Hut stopped running it's business for twoo weeks. Because!! We are going to semi-edi. Samller store. Smaller no. of customers. BUt please expect a full house.

Yesterday, i brought for Danial: large chicken supreme, 3 garlic bread, 15 pcs honey roasted wings. Then his mom and dad send me home. Reached home about 11.50pm.

He has yet to top up his prepaid.. Should i top up for him? Ahahaks. I dunno. And friends still asking me when i'll be watching rush hour 3. Not forgetting the common test cumin. Still deciding when to start my science revisions, I planned during the December holidays. But i think i should start earlier mann.

Depends. **Still the Chalet of USPH!! Sab ask me to go. Subra, Abg Kamsani, Abg BOB, etc.... (Sab have u link me?)

okok firdaus. i think i noe how u noe. hahah. dumb me.

i woke up and watch WINX>ahaha. Anxx carn't make it today cause his mom las minute ajak him makan. den i was soo bored at home i made the COOKIES again. According to bibik it was much delicious that the previous cookied i made.But kakak said it was awful though.

Den Danial. Asked me to go to his house. He told me to bring the cookies. Cause the previous one he only ate 2. So i just brought la. I told him my sister said it was awful, he said mayb my sister was plain jealous she carnt bake and i could. ahahaks.WE went to National Library to study. National Lib rawks. I love it there. Soo peaceful unlike Woodlands Library mann.  Studies there until 7+. Walked at Bugis Street cause he wants to search for this Kemeja. Then saw shafiqah(3m1) there.

After that went to his house again. While gg met Basith. They wanted to play soccer. When we reached home to find out my cookies finish. He was not satisfied cause the cookies i brought ended up in other people's stomach. Ahaha. Pity him. Then me and his family when to Changi Beach. Thoqif called me 1st(KO) then awak2. When i played with him, he told me instead of gg back to my house go back to his. Hahah.Cute la thoqif(danial youngest bro,4th).

WE then lepak2 at Seletar to hear the mystery jam12.The his dad send me home. I only salam his mother and Afiq(Danial younger brother,3rd). Thats bcoz he wants to salam. me.or else i wouldn't. I think among his brother i'mnot close with Kamal.Barely talk to him. His second.

Thanks Danial for letting me know ur famliy and all. It's fun. Thanks again=)   Mayb2 anxx wants to teach me the coordinates geometry, unless he call it of again.

Okayy guys!! hmm. been more than a whole week since i updated. BUsy okayy!! With the homework. Haiz3. Alwaays homework as the reason. What a boring life and a stupid excuse.

M0RniNG:

erm. School wasn't co-operative in singing national day songs. I brought to school the cookie that i baked yst. So after that we went to watch the concert. Hafiz Azizi said that he quit Sports Leader. I don't know if i believe him or not. I does not really matter.

The thing that matter was i went to the STAGE ti give anxx the rose. YoYo. But White rose symbolizes PURITY. Then anxx face was like shocked when he saw me. hahas. I place the rose btwn his lips. Hahas. When i came down the stage! Gawd. I was shivering non-stop. Serious!! I had to hold me bestie FANA n IZZATI. Irah was shivering too.. I still could not quite believe i did it too. Niwae, i carn imagine myself on the stage!! What's more his ex was ther. But anxx said that it wasn't anything to be worried or afraid of.

Hang around Stephanie'sCorner n talked about MAN. Hais. Like i said, need to talk to him one of this days how to treat my bestie well!! Then i went home to get changed and went to city hall to me the Serangoon's. When to his house n went out again to catch the movie. With besties FANA, ZeTty, ZuLhilmi, Syafiq, Ahmad.. ALONE was nothing! I think i would rather catch simpsons la. Then we ate LongJohn and had our laughs *winks!! After that took the bus and when back to his house. Meet his parents! His siblings are cute mann. Haiyoh.. Hahas. All Boys. sec2,p5,k1;i didn't salam his dad. I'm not to salam guys unless their my close relative s. It's haram. Gawd!! But that's what Ustaz said.

me and anxx plan to study on Friday after his prayers!

Well. My dad say that i should STOP playing with guys feelings. I was like WHAT?? Since when i was playing with guys feeling? I told them straight i was only looking forward for FRiendship not RElationships.

I like this boii among the other boys i contact. Hehehe. Cause he can sustain a long relationship. But he's not really msg'ing me too often. I get upset =( his not the one to always be there. And i would not always be the one to message his first. Too bad!!

Okayy till here. Piles and piles of homework is to be done aite peeps.

I went away for 5 days at Pulau Ubin, Outward Bound Singapore. It is the best camp ever!! I swear! Hehe. I really enjoyed myself there. I really did need the five day break over my hectic schedule. I want a new me. A simple me. Just me n no complicated shitt or craps.Let me summarize my OBS journey. First day; i really thought it will be boring HILLARY. Cause first day our group was very quiet. Basicly the camp were mentally and mostly physically straining. I popped muscle at my arms. Hahas. Yucks or Kewl?? I love the Rock Climbing, Double Dangle Duo, Raft Building, Hiking without the bag pack!! Members were: Me, aSyikin, Zaid, Rovson, PremKumar, WeiJie, Joshua, Raihana, Shakeela, Sisi, Raimy, Fayas, Hussain, Gary, *Renny, Khaliq, and our Facilitator SERENE!! Enjoy OBS, Pulau Ubin. Except bathing parts and eating. Lucky i didn't lose any weight. ahaha. N i'm not called kayu anymore. I'm proud u noe. HAhahahhahaha. Seriously.

Well. 1st person i called was Farhanah! Asked her hmwerk. Haiz. Tons of mathematics. Revision seriously required. Duh!! Thus i went to study with izzati along with Syamin and Irah. I ate LongJohn. My appetite was huge! I ate combo1, large fries(the portion was insufficient), 2 cheese, 1/3 of the chocolate cream pie.. Then i top up my ez-link and did my consession. I want buy new phone. Upgrade my contract. Still deciding if i want to continue my facial. 

mY NEW goals are:

No serious thoughts of BGR unless the boii is superly exceptionally good to me and doesn't mind me getting along with the opposite well (no jealousy required), n me not having much time to spent with him.

No wasting time and money on shopping or fast food(xcpt LongJohn). 

No messaging after 11.30pm. Calls allowed.

No working on weekdays unless public holiday(max 1 day). Weekends until 6pm.

REmains- Love myself,trust myself,be reliant, be independant, be confident, be brutally honest and to always be Right(justice)!!

Starting a new life. No turning back. No thinking of the MISTAKES.. I did what i did at that point of time. No regrets. =X wee!!! Thus i'm not in any state where i'm guilty and feels that i should apologize. Cause i did that already. Yeah! Get it guys..

Ok. This whole week was soo busy that i hardly had enough time to sleep. Seriously. That's why i did not blog for 5five days. Haiz... Monday i was working. What the most upsetting thing is that, out of the three night staff only i was present. Thus i have to stay till 11 n let Leslie finish the rest. But Luqman fetch me. I told him NOT to. He said ok he wont come, but came niwae. Haiz. He lied.

Tuesday i went to my facial appointment. It was soo painful!!!!!!1 Extreme pain. No reason why, usually its not this way. N i don't even know if i should continue the course... Should i??

Wednesday. I went to work. Yay!! People came. Mamat was there, thus its fun and enjoyable.Minah!!! I know ur present. Hehex. Secret*blueks! Thursday was facial harmony day. We took pictures. Sorry guys this blogdrive took me ages to upload. Hehez. But lesson was still as per normal except the concert where we miss Malay and i carn rmb. Then later in the afternoon, i was wearing the baju kebaya n still when to do the duty, place signboards at fields. Then i rushed back and go for my first day of my Order Taker Workshop. Wait!!! N i went to collect my IC!!! Fafa said i have a big nose.

Friday! Was the big event. X-country. In charge. I woke up at 6.15 when i'm supposed to be at school at 6.45.. Haizz. Super late. I'm tired larr. Well all i can say i love my fellow sports leaders a whole lots3. But those students who cannot co-operate and just listen to what we say and only think about themselves are just utterly selfish. I hate those kind of people!! Yeah i do. hehex. then 20mins after de-brief which WeiLi say we done well(i 95%agree), i have to go to Chem make up lesson. Hai. My brain was not functioning like how it's supposed to be. Hmm. Due to lack of sleep. Duh!! Then i rush home. and when to second and last day of the Order taker workshop.

*i hope i'm not getting thinner!!!

I do not know how it's spelt. But that's how Yao Zu spelt it. We were supposed to meet all the exco at 8am outside breadtalk. Den hafiz n Sharizal supposed to meet me at boots n shoes at 7.10-7.15.. Guese what i woke up at 7.04. haiz. I selpt late guys. Then i reached causeway at about 7.40 and bought takeaways from Ya Kun Kaya Toast.

.........LOng story. Cut short. I went back after Bugis. Had an 'appointment' to meet someone. Thus i didn't go East Coast. N i found out that Florence read my blog. She wanted to ask me something but did not ask... Though she said it was about 'Rasyid... She said it sounds sad. Wad ya expect. Hai.. But life goes on u c. Ahahsk.

Den saw fauzi at Causeway when i wanted to buy sweettalk. Den he asked me who i was with. "who's the boy?" Why does he want to know. haiii.

I think i'll stick to 'THE PLAN'. If u guys know wad i'm refering too. I have completed all my homework except for question 7a,b,c. I dunnoe what the question is asking. N not to mention the test coming up. N the OBS camp. haii

More groans of boredom, anger, stress, dissapointment... DOOM! though like i said. "LIFE GOES ON!" i carn't believe i actually wished for "live life with no worries". It just means i'm a worry-wort.